Mommy and Me

Sometimes I wonder if my mom ever wonders why we aren't as close anymore. I have the biggest problem with bottling my troubles up and I don't say anything. If I were to say something I'd tell her that we were really close before, when we didn't live with my dad. Not that he has anything to do with my mom and I moving further apart. It's just that when he became part of the family again, we moved. I really hate moving, it always ruins stuff. I'd love travel all over the world but I'd never want to move. Anyway, I think the biggest factor is that the new job she got when we moved here was definitely different from what I was used to. My mom is a doctor for kids, a pediatrician. The problem is that where we live now, everyone in the community is my mom's patients. Half of my friends knows mom better than me! And even worse it seems as if my mom loves them more or equal than me.

But its not like at her old job she didn't treat some of my friends. When I was little, my mom used to go to other people's houses and treat the little kids there. It was her kind of "little good deed" at the end of the week. She'd always bring me along. I remember she'd always let me help and basically make me feel important. My mom would have me give her the different tools; from otoscopes to thermometers. She taught me what each one did and why.
I know it sounds selfish but it seems as if now she calls everyone her "little sweetheart." it's so obvious when she's just being polite even though you can tell she's exhausted. I've watched her go through 8 patients in one day and say to each one of them the same thing, "there's my favorite little girl!" I guess I'm okay with that, she's just trying to make them feel better so they don't get scared when she starts the shots or the checkups with her tools that definitely would scare a five year old. But it's when she says it to me that I get a little afraid. Is she just being polite like she does it to the other kids?
My mom doesn't take me with her to others' houses anymore. She leaves me at home alone, stuck with homework. The worst part is when i make a friend and then
SHE MEETS MY MOM!!.....,
they start talking for hours and I'm stuck there watching them. It hurts that I can never find a friend who can actually like me without liking my mom more. It also hurts that these people can all talk to her more openly than I ever could (in the years after I moved).

I should be thankful though. I mean I'm so lucky and grateful to God that He gave me a mother, and one who is a doctor. I really am lucky and it's all thanks to God for blessing me. Someday I plan to tell her. I'm just waiting for the right moment, but it seems to never come. There's so many things I haven't said, just blogging this is a real opening up for me. Anyway there's my pathetic story of how I can't tell my mom my problems :( but it's all good. Bye!!

Last Day of weekend

I went to my grandparents house this weekend. Even though I totally blew it off and wasted a whole weekend I was so happy. It was just the relaxation I needed. Well, they live two hours away from my house so we just came back today about two hours ago. I wrote a poem today. I'll show it to u guys l8r

Day Before Eid-ul-Adha

Well its been a long time since i've written. I dont know how old I was in my last post but i'm in tenth grade now. scary I know. Anyway I go to an IB school so of course they relish in the joy of giving us homework :( But thankfully its the weekend. And not just any weekend, a no homework weekend! I bet you can guess what that means- NO HOMEWORK. Ever since i've gone to my IB school me and my friends all have this joke that going to an IB school means having no life including the weekends, unless its a no homework weekend. So now i can say "wow I now have a temporary life!" until monday comes. I hate mondays, who's with me? I mean even the word sounds like, mundane. You know, as in boring. Going back to school, you know im in IB because i haven't even had time to look forward to my holiday which is tommorow. I think this is the first time im actually thinking and mentioning it for this year. Im excited. My holiday is called eid. I am Muslim, and im proud of it. It makes me sad when people hate our religion because they know nothing about it, except from what they here on tv. Any questions, please ask. Anyway, im at the library right now, it makes me sad when you walk into a library and you see millions of shelves full of wonderful books just waiting to be opened, but all the aisles are empty. Then you look at the computer lab and there's the swarm of people to whom those hundreds of cars parked outside belong to. It's like what's the point of coming to a library if you don't read the books? EVEN THE KIDS ARE DOING IT! Anyway see ya guys later, gotta work on a book report :(

7:11 Isn't as Close as I Thought It Would Be

Omg the funniest yet one of the most embarrassing events happened today. So my aunts and My uncle came over from Virginia. I love them because they are really like my big siblings (always giving me advice and having my back). Anyway they came over and they wanted to go to our local pharmacy to get some goodies aka: junk food. Well I told them why don't we walk there. Where I live everything is
Like literally 2 to 5 minutes away or maybe ten minutes at the most. Plus I've always wanted to walk to 7 11 which is just a ouple minutes away from home while walking. So they said okay " you just have to tell us where to go. Well you see I knew the jist of h

how to get there. i mean i knew the direction and all and lets just say that by car it seemed pretty close. Well, lets just say i was COMPLETELY WRONG!!! We started walking and after we walked ten minutes we finally passed a school. This was sort of my marker and i finally told my young aunts and uncle that we were almost there. by the way this whole time they were teasing me (in an fun-loving way) about how long it was. I was already feeling so horrible that when i saw that school bus i was so relieved! not only this but my feet were starting to hurt and i was the only one WITH tennis shoes. To make a very super long story short, we ended up at 7-11 after about 30 MINUTES! i know, i'm a criminal. Only then did i find out that the school that i thought meant we were halfway there, really was a marker telling us that we were one-third of the way there!By the time we went in and bought our stuff my aunts and uncle were so nice, they didn't want to tell me that it was WAY too long to walk all the way back so we called my mom and she picked us up. it was probably one of the most embarrassing moments of my life. However thankfully i can look back on it now and laugh about it. But for future reference if you ever think something is five minutes away by car just tell yourself its an hour away by walk!! :) By for now!

Okay so its been 2 years since ive actually posted something. That is not only scary but its dissapointing and sad so i decided to just put this post up. I'll probably post something better later but for now this is all ive got to say. :) :) :) :D

Realization

Wow today i came to an amazing realization. See as we all know humans get distracted by our desires. Unfortunately i have been getting distracted by many of my desires, some of which are horrible habits. Just now i was about to go to youtube and just do another wasting of my time (ive been wasting my time this whole week cuz im at my grandparents)but then i thought lemme just put on an islamic song so that my parents see that i at least listen to islamic songs. So i did and as a coincedence the song was called Realization. it talked all about how a man realized the importance of his life, and duty on Earth. JUst at that minute i realized to. I understood that many times although i may noty want to do something good if i just start with a little i can do the rest. It is the first step that is the most important and i need to remember that i should always leave everything and take that first step to Allah (swt)
P.S. i am listening to Madinah Tun Nabi right now instead of somethin else.
P.P.S. Quran, Nanaba, HAlaqa (reminders for nxt post)

Funny Moments With My Brother

So today my brother and i had the the best and maybe a little naughty time ever. My mom was talking to my grandparents and whenever she finally gets the chance to talk to them she takes it and talks for a long time (thus leaving us more time to do naughty things without her finding out). OK so my brother and i are not the best kids but we are real close and (hopefully) no one can break us apart. Anywho, we first started off by filling our bathroom sink with water and then we brought up two ingredients, red food coloring, and oil. We poured the oil in the sink of water and then put a bit of food coloring in there too and it looked awesome. Whenever we twirled the water/oil mixture it wood form long bubbles (its really cool you should try it). Then i tried to make an oil painting out of it by placing paper on the water but for some reason it didn't work. Well, then we went to wash our hands off and we found....
THE SHAVING CREAM!!!
DUN DUN DUN DUUUNNNNN. i know what ur thinkin and you guys are right! The minute we started there was no stopping us. We smeared shaving cream on the bathroom counter and wrote stuff inside. My most favorite part was when i took the cream and put it over my chin and over my lip. I looked like santa clause with black hair; It was hilarious. My brother was to afraid to do it but i urged him to do it, and told him i wouldn't wipe my (beard) off until he did. Poor him though. My brother tried to close his mouth and smear the shaving cream on, but he put soo much that the shaving cream fell into his mouth the minute he opened up his mouth and smiled. He started spitting like crazy and i felt sooo bad for him. But in the end it was a good laugh. I had soo much fun with him, except for the part when we had to clean all that shaving cream up. It was still worth it though.