My Poem

Okay guys here's the poem that has been long overdue!

The tree that wasn't tall
Stood silently alone
Looking shorter by the minute
'Front the fancy suburban home

The rock that wasn't gray
A leader in it's river
The keeper of the land
Quiet, silent giver

The sun that wasn't hot
Rises from the setting stars
An opposite reaction
To the ending of the moon

But where amidst all this does come
A glimpse of commonality?
To see the uniqueness of each hand
A fingerprint never the same

What truly is normality?
And who's to say what's right or wrong
When all perfection lies in relativity?
And nothing is but wrong

Did you know?

1. Those who seem the strongest, are usually the most sensitive.

2. Those who seem the kindest, have often been mistreated.

3. Those who reach out to, and care for other people, are usually the people who need some help themselves.

4. Those who smile the most, rarely have the perfect life. If you look behind the smile you will often find a lot of pain.

5. The three hardest things to say are “I’m sorry”; “I love you”; and “Please help me.”

Childhood Best Friend Dilemma

I'm so stuck. What do you do when you find an old childhood best friend online? Do you just like type to her saying "hi! Remember me from like 10 years ago?" What if you just found out her mom died? Do you say sorry to her online? Is it stalking if you look at her tumblr alot because you just so badly want to see her or remind yourself of her or you feel like you can relate to her so well, or something? I know this problem isn't half as hard as other people's but LIFE IS SO HARD!

Sunday Morning

I witnessed the most beautiful sunrise today. We were all up at 7:00 today and by 7:30 we had all packed ourselves in the car ready to return home. It was then, that I saw the sun. So slowly it started as a small flicker and I could see it erasing the darkness of the night. The next thing I know it was brightening the whole sky in a pastel yellow glow. To my right I see the bright sky holding the sun in it's palm. To the left, is the small bit of dark cloudy sky that's left. It's amazing how God creates the alternation of day and night, its so slow but absolutely miraculous, words cannot even describe it's true beauty. That's what I see in the morning. Its kind of strange but I feel that the sunrise is more beautiful than the sunset. It reminds me that God was merciful enough to give me another day to live. To me,
it represents a new chance and another beginning as opposed to the sunset and it's representation of the end of the day. I used to wonder why God made the world the way He did. I mean the way we perceive it, is that how He wanted us to see it? I'm so thankful that I have Islam to give me these answers. There are so many mysteries about the world. Scientists try to find the answers and discover, but if they had just read the Quran they would have known these things so much earlier. That's the thing, Islam follows no trends or times in history, we have our own trend and guide which is Islam and our guidebook is the Quran. For example, women used to cover their hair and wouldn't go out if their ankles were not covered! Now women walk around practically half naked. We Muslim women don't follow the trends, to this day we continue to cover ourselves from head to toe when we leave the house. At the same time, we've known about these discoveries (such as the separation of salt and fresh water) for centuries, 1400 years earlier, but scientists are only discovering them now. This is the truth of Allah. God's words can be nothing but true. God's words are in all three books (the Bible, the Torah and the Quran) but over time people have altered it. They've changed things and replaced words. Only the Quran's words have been unchanged and if you don't believe me, please read it for yourself, and discover the beauty of Islam.

Hey guys, so the marathon has been extended until Dec 2nd. Please, anyone who can donate please do, it will make a difference and the donation uses SSL to secure your billing information and encrypt all donations so that your information is safe. Remember go to webuildon.buildon.org/saadiamali Thanks again to all those who have donated! P.S. Thanks so much Bailey, a big shout out to you!

Add On to BuildOn

This is just simply an add on to my buildOn post, but this is a marathon that I am doing and it lasts for four weeks. Three weeks have already gone by and the fourth is almost done!If i can reach my goal within these four weeks (2,000 dollars)I will win! Please remember to donate because this week is the deadline and it will end this Saturday. Don't forget those small children in Mali just waiting to be able to read! Make a difference by helping me in giving our future children the one tool they need to pull themselves and their families out of poverty!

buildOn

IMPOTANT NOTE GUYS!! I'm raising money as part of my buildon club to raise money to build schools in Mali! Those small little children will finally be able to learn to read and pull their families out of poverty! But we need your help!! In order to donate, go to webuildon.buildon.org/saadiamali. Click the donate now button and donate!!! Remember the more you give the more of an influence you will have on a child's education in Mali. My goal is to raise 2000 dollars so please please please help out! Thanks again!

New Post Suggestions

Okay guys so I really need to be doing better at this whole blog thing. I mean before I was posting fun pictures of weird cakes and now I'm just like using this blog as like a boring, complaining, diary or something. That's not what I want my blog to be like. So anyone, please leave a comment below of what you think I should post! Ask me some questions. Any specific topics you want me to talk about? Any picture requests? Anyway, this time you guys get to choose! So leave a comment and I'll try to answer as best I can :D Bye!

The First Day of Every Week= Depressing

Today I just feel tired. But not so tired to the point where I'm absolutely sick of life. I'm just tired. I know, I probably sound like a very depressed student right now. I guess this is what IB dies to you! Not that I'm trying to scare you off, I still love my school and I wouldn't want to go anywhere else. It's just i hate those days when you have all this time, but you know you totally wasted it. And instead of feeling refreshed and relaxed after taking a break you just feel lazy. It's like I'll waste 3 hours of my life and you'd think by then I'd be rested enough to do my homework, but nope! I was wrong. And then I waste more time not being able to focus on my work. It's Monday today and I found this pic that I use as my background. I really am thinking of it right now, heres the picture, and that's exactly what I'm thinking. Doesn't he look SOO cute!!

Family time!

Today was my Aunt's birthday. I didn't know for sure though until this afternoon when I saw my cousin's beautiful cake. I'm telling you he has real potential in the baking industry. Anyway today was another waste of time. I finished none of my homework and I hardly even left the house. I basically was a lazy bum today. But then came night time! Yesterday my Mom was criticizing my Dad on how he's always addicted to his phone. Whether at home or at work he's constantly checking his texts or using it for something. It's really ironic actually, because my dad hates it when he sees one of those addicted teenagers who text even as you're talking to them! Thus, when my mom criticized him he suddenly realized his addiction and went on this whole idea that we should have 'family time' together. Surprisingly though it was not a disappointment. My dad actually played the board game. On the downside 5 minutes into the game, i realized one of our cards were missing and it messed up the whole game ( we were playing Clue). After that my parents went to bed while my brother and I acted in a game of charades. It was so funny I couldn't stop laughing. After tiring out from that, we lay down on the couch and played "Fortunately Unfortunately" until we fell asleep. And that was how I spent my Saturday night!

Mommy and Me

Sometimes I wonder if my mom ever wonders why we aren't as close anymore. I have the biggest problem with bottling my troubles up and I don't say anything. If I were to say something I'd tell her that we were really close before, when we didn't live with my dad. Not that he has anything to do with my mom and I moving further apart. It's just that when he became part of the family again, we moved. I really hate moving, it always ruins stuff. I'd love travel all over the world but I'd never want to move. Anyway, I think the biggest factor is that the new job she got when we moved here was definitely different from what I was used to. My mom is a doctor for kids, a pediatrician. The problem is that where we live now, everyone in the community is my mom's patients. Half of my friends knows mom better than me! And even worse it seems as if my mom loves them more or equal than me.

But its not like at her old job she didn't treat some of my friends. When I was little, my mom used to go to other people's houses and treat the little kids there. It was her kind of "little good deed" at the end of the week. She'd always bring me along. I remember she'd always let me help and basically make me feel important. My mom would have me give her the different tools; from otoscopes to thermometers. She taught me what each one did and why.
I know it sounds selfish but it seems as if now she calls everyone her "little sweetheart." it's so obvious when she's just being polite even though you can tell she's exhausted. I've watched her go through 8 patients in one day and say to each one of them the same thing, "there's my favorite little girl!" I guess I'm okay with that, she's just trying to make them feel better so they don't get scared when she starts the shots or the checkups with her tools that definitely would scare a five year old. But it's when she says it to me that I get a little afraid. Is she just being polite like she does it to the other kids?
My mom doesn't take me with her to others' houses anymore. She leaves me at home alone, stuck with homework. The worst part is when i make a friend and then
SHE MEETS MY MOM!!.....,
they start talking for hours and I'm stuck there watching them. It hurts that I can never find a friend who can actually like me without liking my mom more. It also hurts that these people can all talk to her more openly than I ever could (in the years after I moved).

I should be thankful though. I mean I'm so lucky and grateful to God that He gave me a mother, and one who is a doctor. I really am lucky and it's all thanks to God for blessing me. Someday I plan to tell her. I'm just waiting for the right moment, but it seems to never come. There's so many things I haven't said, just blogging this is a real opening up for me. Anyway there's my pathetic story of how I can't tell my mom my problems :( but it's all good. Bye!!

Last Day of weekend

I went to my grandparents house this weekend. Even though I totally blew it off and wasted a whole weekend I was so happy. It was just the relaxation I needed. Well, they live two hours away from my house so we just came back today about two hours ago. I wrote a poem today. I'll show it to u guys l8r

Day Before Eid-ul-Adha

Well its been a long time since i've written. I dont know how old I was in my last post but i'm in tenth grade now. scary I know. Anyway I go to an IB school so of course they relish in the joy of giving us homework :( But thankfully its the weekend. And not just any weekend, a no homework weekend! I bet you can guess what that means- NO HOMEWORK. Ever since i've gone to my IB school me and my friends all have this joke that going to an IB school means having no life including the weekends, unless its a no homework weekend. So now i can say "wow I now have a temporary life!" until monday comes. I hate mondays, who's with me? I mean even the word sounds like, mundane. You know, as in boring. Going back to school, you know im in IB because i haven't even had time to look forward to my holiday which is tommorow. I think this is the first time im actually thinking and mentioning it for this year. Im excited. My holiday is called eid. I am Muslim, and im proud of it. It makes me sad when people hate our religion because they know nothing about it, except from what they here on tv. Any questions, please ask. Anyway, im at the library right now, it makes me sad when you walk into a library and you see millions of shelves full of wonderful books just waiting to be opened, but all the aisles are empty. Then you look at the computer lab and there's the swarm of people to whom those hundreds of cars parked outside belong to. It's like what's the point of coming to a library if you don't read the books? EVEN THE KIDS ARE DOING IT! Anyway see ya guys later, gotta work on a book report :(

7:11 Isn't as Close as I Thought It Would Be

Omg the funniest yet one of the most embarrassing events happened today. So my aunts and My uncle came over from Virginia. I love them because they are really like my big siblings (always giving me advice and having my back). Anyway they came over and they wanted to go to our local pharmacy to get some goodies aka: junk food. Well I told them why don't we walk there. Where I live everything is
Like literally 2 to 5 minutes away or maybe ten minutes at the most. Plus I've always wanted to walk to 7 11 which is just a ouple minutes away from home while walking. So they said okay " you just have to tell us where to go. Well you see I knew the jist of h

how to get there. i mean i knew the direction and all and lets just say that by car it seemed pretty close. Well, lets just say i was COMPLETELY WRONG!!! We started walking and after we walked ten minutes we finally passed a school. This was sort of my marker and i finally told my young aunts and uncle that we were almost there. by the way this whole time they were teasing me (in an fun-loving way) about how long it was. I was already feeling so horrible that when i saw that school bus i was so relieved! not only this but my feet were starting to hurt and i was the only one WITH tennis shoes. To make a very super long story short, we ended up at 7-11 after about 30 MINUTES! i know, i'm a criminal. Only then did i find out that the school that i thought meant we were halfway there, really was a marker telling us that we were one-third of the way there!By the time we went in and bought our stuff my aunts and uncle were so nice, they didn't want to tell me that it was WAY too long to walk all the way back so we called my mom and she picked us up. it was probably one of the most embarrassing moments of my life. However thankfully i can look back on it now and laugh about it. But for future reference if you ever think something is five minutes away by car just tell yourself its an hour away by walk!! :) By for now!

Okay so its been 2 years since ive actually posted something. That is not only scary but its dissapointing and sad so i decided to just put this post up. I'll probably post something better later but for now this is all ive got to say. :) :) :) :D